If I let go, I can be free

It has been a while. I spent the month in Colorado with my daughter. What a spiritually nourishing time! It was like being in a nest of spiritual energy and support. Although I have been reading about these ideas for years, I finally could get a taste...if I just let go of my expectations, shoulds, etc, I can be free! Fleeting freedom at this point for sure, but freedom nonetheless. Little hooks come in and out, like a scheduled presentation at a conference next week. "What a great opportunity" my mind says, and the more potent one: "How can you miss that?" "There will be no others!" However, I am not well enough to travel to San Diego and present. If I let go of my ideas about it, I can be free. And I can also see what else is there! My mind is a wonderful gift no doubt, but it also feeds me many many storylines that I need not listen to. The good news is that the Inner Self if there no matter what! Even lying in bed, whether or not I am successful or anything. What a relief!