Attachments

Some of the things I am definitely attached to...health, having energy, and happiness. I like to feel well, and this is a challenge with a health condition. So I am trying to learn to connect to a deeper state of consciousness AND feel unwell at the same time. And I am attached to energy. I really dislike feeling fatigued. It makes me grumpy and irritable with everyone around me. One of the things I am still learning is that I need to respect my need for rest. This is related to my attachment to DOING and BEING SOMEBODY. One of my favorite books is Being Nobody, Going Nowhere....how do you like that in Western culture? Of course I continually want to be someone, and go somewhere! My illness is teaching me a new way of being. Slow process for sure. But, when we are flexible and recognize the changing nature of things, including health and happiness, we can be free!

If I let go, I can be free

It has been a while. I spent the month in Colorado with my daughter. What a spiritually nourishing time! It was like being in a nest of spiritual energy and support. Although I have been reading about these ideas for years, I finally could get a taste...if I just let go of my expectations, shoulds, etc, I can be free! Fleeting freedom at this point for sure, but freedom nonetheless. Little hooks come in and out, like a scheduled presentation at a conference next week. "What a great opportunity" my mind says, and the more potent one: "How can you miss that?" "There will be no others!" However, I am not well enough to travel to San Diego and present. If I let go of my ideas about it, I can be free. And I can also see what else is there! My mind is a wonderful gift no doubt, but it also feeds me many many storylines that I need not listen to. The good news is that the Inner Self if there no matter what! Even lying in bed, whether or not I am successful or anything. What a relief!